wonder

So the generic title may get some of you reading or may turn the rest of you away. Do you often wonder what is God's purpose for an individual he puts in your life.

Well I know for sure God put my best friend Linsey into my life to give me confidence and to continue to be a dreamer. As she has passed however I often wonder what reasons people are in my life for.

My mom I have narrowed done because God knew no other women could handle me. God knew that I needed a strong women in my life to lead me.

My friends all have a lot of the same reasons, some for entertainment and others are those great ears that forever love to listen when I need them too.

Then there is my favorite bull riders mom. Now, you may be laughing at this point. Most of you would be like God gave you her to tell you funny stories of him and to see how passionate you are about his sport. However, I am still not sure if that is the case. Last night he got hurt. This doesn't surprise me since this sport there is always an injury.  Posting my status to facebook I figured would just get looked over by many of my friends but this status and maybe because it was her son prompted her to message me about how he was doing.

I wanted so bad to tell her he would be okay. I wanted to know what was wrong so I could calm a mother's nerves. I wanted to be able to hold her hand in that moment. At that moment and going through today constantly praying for him I realized that like many other things in my life, this sport has brought me a family.

now grant it, its a loose family with many people scattered all across the globe that enjoys watching and cares for these guys if not the same but as much as I do. These guys bring hope. They show strength and they defy it all to do what they love...Ride bulls!

Now, I feel like one lucky girl to get to encounter 45 of the most elite bull riders every year. I am so lucky to make their acquantance once or twice in a 12 month calander year. These guys make me see that my dreams are conquerable! They make me want to strive to be a better person. They make me want excitement out of life.

Its this family that I know why God gave them to me. He gave them to me to share with the world, to tell people about the exciting yet dangerous sport of bull riding.

However, I still wonder what is in store with the future. I know I never told you but my dream job would be to work for the PBR. My dream job is to be there for the riders when things like this happen. I only hope I continue to persue my dreams and continue to be open with my hearts desire!

Out of the chute and off to wonder some more,

Please keep praying for my favorite bull rider he is in need of it!